excited..
i cant wait to witness a smile that never fades..
i cant wait to see the eyes of sparkling crystals..
i cant wait to take you where your heart beats faster..
i cant wait to make you feel it isnt a dream anymore..
i cant wait.. because i don't have the time..
i cant wait.. because soon i'll be gone..
i cant wait.. because somehow deep down i don't want to go.. :(
and it came..
and then it came, i got the job, i was accepted at Grand Hyatt Seattle.. i was waiting of it for months now and then it came.. the letter i've been longing to read for quite sometime now popped out of my e-mail.. how it felt? i couldnt understand.. i thought i was ready.. but somehow it felt that i wasnt.. my contract officially starts on november 1.. and right now i'm already processing my visa..
my dad wants me to leave a week before, but somethings holding me back.. it just felt like i'm leaving with an unfinished business.. there are just things that i couldnt help but wonder what if i was there.. and the fear of living alone creeps in, all my life I've never been two provinces apart from my loved ones.. even if I've lived alone for a few months now, i know that whenever i need them they're just there,a call or a text away.. but thinking that we'll be continents apart disheartens me.. just to be specific:
number one is my bestfriend's graduation, he has worked so hard for it. for so many years I was by his side helping him get through all the struggles he had to go through to get to that point.. and when we were on the verge of celebrating, i leave.. he graduates on november 8.. oh the agony!..
number two, the fear of living all alone, in the big city. my co-applicant mai has already left for UK. we were supposed to fly together and divide our costs but when she decided to pursue with UK all the burden of living alone was stuck in my head. how will i survive?
number three, the mere fact that i'm missing christmas this year.. that i'll be spending christmas alone as well as new year.. that My parents will be alone for this year. Who's gonna help them out? how will they celebrate the season together? how i wish I was here to celebrate with them.
these are just a few things. i know somehow i'm not ready.. but i know i have to be tough.. i have to prove myself's worth.. i have to be independent.. i have to be strong.. i can do this..
how much i hate goodbyes it has to happen. i just never expected this soon. i hope everything turns out fine. I know I have God and the prayers of my loved ones with me.
any day now i'll be in the mood to write my goodbye letter.. i just hope i could finish it in time
Wish me luck.. :)
im craving for..
im here stuck at the office.. bloghopping, netsurfing..
while watching tv this morning i suddenly craved for a lot of things..
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Bannofee Pie (kc i saw it this morning sa Umagang Kay Ganda
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Chicken Al Pesto of Napolis/Aveneto/Chef d Angelo-
Onion Rings of Brothers Burger-
Chicken Joy and Spaghetti (hahaha bata!)-
Forest Ham Sandwich-
Pritong Isaw sa Lasalle-
Fishballs sa Coop dati-
Sizzling Sirloin sa Canteen nung HS-
Chocolate Batirol-
Green Salad w/ Feta Cheese at Cyma-
A Tenderjuicy Hotdog (hahaha!!)
waaaaa andame kong gusto..
maybe because i dont have money thats why im daydreaming of eating all these stuff haha!!
oh dear me.. :)
quezon getaway
it's been a while since i left the boundaries of north luzon.. this time we headed south.
Day 1it was a long drive to
Catanauan,Quezon,the home of my sister-in-law ate Remy. We drove for almost 6 hours. I had the civic, kuya had the CRV. The roads were already cemented as compared to our last trip a few years back which was one rocky and bumpy ride. I had Tamie, Ate baby and Jennifer as my passengers. We left Bulacan at around 2pm (because Wico had class til 12). Kuya and I met at Shell SLEX for a change of passengers, Rianna and Wico had to transfer to the CRV. The ride began. Honestly, I never expected to be that long, all the while i thought that from Lucena it would be just around an hour or so, but it took 3hours before we finally reached Catanauan. (whew).. While i was driving, it felt like I was a racer from
Initial D since the roads were jampacked with sharp and blind curves. I realized I was having fun after all hehe!.. We reached the resthouse around 8:30pm.. We ate a bountiful dinner and went back to the "bayan" to finally take a rest.
Day 2We went around a bit, we visited the
Carica Factory, in which the family of Ate Rem developed. Then we went back Ajos to finally swim. Here are some pictures.
Naked Wico and Tamie by the Beach
Me and Ate Cathy by the Sand
Kuya and Kuya Wico by the Balsa
Tam and Ate Remy by the Balsa
We ate dinner at Ajos because it was Lola Antonia's birthday celebration. We were really stuffed with all these native Filipino dishes such as Lechon (and sarap nung balat grabe!), Kare-kare, Giant Squid, Calderetang Muscle of Beef, Sweet and Sour Fresh Catch fish.. and a whole lot more!!!
Day 3Attended mass at 9:30am (well actually we were 20mins late).. Went home to eat lunch and then went back to Ajos once again to swim.. But this time we took a boat ride for a little snorkeling and swimming..:) after swimming,we had dinner,CRABS!.. honestly im not a seafood person but the crab dish looked very enticing.. I had to have some.. unfortunately,after two rounds i started to itch :( too bad.. i had to stop and eat the garden salad instead!hehe.. it was very good though.. balsamic orangey sort of dressing.. yumyum!
Pics of day 3..
Kuya with the Kids of Catanauan
Me Hanggliding - i almost cannot get back to the boat.. huhuhu
Watching a beautiful sunset across the sea..:)
Finally day 4..Like any other vacation,all these had to end.. All the pigging out ended by noon.. all the swimming and all the fun had to be left behind.. :( we left Quezon around 2:00pm.. Had too many stopvers due to pasalubongs and stuff and most of all back to reality,the TRAFFIC!! gggrrr..!! SLEX was soooo trafffiiicc!.. we were able to get to bulacan around 9:30pm.. Was i tired?super!ehhee!!.. but anyhow, remembering all the good stuff we had in Quezon makes me forget the hassles here in Manila.. Sarap magbaksyon!!
Nanay and Tatay, thanks for all the hospitality you gave us!! Til next year!:)
Nanay Antonia and Tatay Oscar with our cutie Baby Rianna:)
me,signing off..
uplate
for a first timer, i never knew how to react when my phone rang..
last night i was uplate with my mom, after the news i immediately tuck myself into bed and the usual routine that i do was to put the tv to sleep mode for 30 mins while i watch ABS-CBNs last show which is
Games Uplate LiveAs i watched the show, the topic was Eraserheads Song, so out of the blue i registered and downloaded one picture msg as how game show demands it. After doing so,i did not hope for anything more so i went to sleep.
After a 30 minutes, i was awakened by my phone ringing.. A landline number was calling,so even if i was at slumber land i answered it.. In much shock it was GUL who was calling telling me what was my answer to their board.. With all confusion and shock i answered "tindahan ni aling nena?", since the last i remember was it was still the eraserheads songs topic. The girl whom i spoke with told me that portion was already finished and it was now about words ending in IVE.. my mind went completely blank! as in!! i paused for like 10 seconds and finally thought of MOTIVE.. my TV was off during that time so i had to turn it on, the girl told me to put the phone in mute and transferred me on air.. That was it, it was real, i was already speaking me with miss Jaymee Joaquin.. i didnt know if i was starstrucked or my mind was completely still in slumberland because i literally had only a few as in a few words to say haha! she asked for my name, it old her "sel" (in which she had a hard time understanding), where i was from (sabi ko bulacan amf!), if i watched the show regularly etc. etc. and finally what was my answer haha!.. immediately i said MOTIVE and there the "uh-oh plus buzzer" sound went in..jaymee said that they needed at least 5 letters before IVE etc. etc. and all the better luck next time thingies hehe.. and then i hung up..
after a few seconds, i realized how am i supposed to get the 300 pesos load if i am subscribed to a postpaid plan.. wwweeeehhh!!!.. unfortunately, i havent received any load yet.. oh brother!
ganun pala yun?nakakabangenge tlga ng utak haha!!.. pero thanks jaymee.. feeling close na ko!hahah:)
the good and the bad
finally after long weeks of waiting.. a sign showed up.. i received the email i was waiting for that felt like ive been waiting for years.. it isnt something to brag about since it isnt a job offer yet but it somehow gave the spark of hope inside me some sort of fireworks display deep inside. hehe. im just too excited. its just an interview.
thank you ms alyssa roudebush for starting beijing olympics in my heart.. hehe:) i just wish whatever happens tomorrow will really really light up the olympic torch..
on the other side of happiness..
shiela, my bestfriend in college, had just had the worst thing that could ever happen to her.. she lost her dad..:( the dad whom she idolized for everything and even the people who had worked under him.. whom she adores for all the goodness he had showered her and her siblings.. the dad whom who has been there despite everything she has done.. the dad who accepted her wholeheartedly.. clearly without reservation..
he died of a heart complication last 08/08/08.. for months he has been in and out of the hospital due to complications in the lungs.. he was a chain smoker.. his lungs probably has been through every possible complication.. it had water, air and cancer.. and finally emphysema.. but this did not stop him from fighting and so did shiela.. but as what most people would say, God has a different plan.. He took
Mr. Romeo Cruz not of the lung complication but with a heart attack to which he kept fighting.. He was revived three times, highly unusual.. but when his daughters finally decided to let him go.. he gave a thumbs up and smiled while saying "im tired".. and then he was gone..
Tatay,
our prayers are with you. we are certainly sure that you are at peace beside the Father.Your 65 years legacy here on earth will never be forgotten. Your goodness will carry on to your family's heritage.. to your future grandchildren and their children and their children's children.. Thank you for making the world a better place.. and thank you for giving us shiela..:)
the good and the bad
finally after long weeks of waiting.. a sign showed up.. i received the email i was waiting for that felt like ive been waiting for years.. it isnt something to brag about since it isnt a job offer yet but it somehow gave the spark of hope inside me some sort of fireworks display deep inside. hehe. im just too excited. its just an interview.
thank you ms alyssa roudebush for starting beijing olympics in my heart.. hehe:) i just wish whatever happens tomorrow will really really light up the olympic torch..
on the other side of happiness..
shiela, my bestfriend in college, had just had the worst thing that could ever happen to her.. she lost her dad..:( the dad whom she idolized for everything and even the people who had worked under him.. whom she adores for all the goodness he had showered her and her siblings.. the dad whom who has been there despite everything she has done.. the dad who accepted her wholeheartedly.. clearly without reservation..
he died of a heart complication last 08/08/08.. for months he has been in and out of the hospital due to complications in the lungs.. he was a chain smoker.. his lungs probably has been through every possible complication.. it had water, air and cancer.. and finally emphysema.. but this did not stop him from fighting and so did shiela.. but as what most people would say, God has a different plan.. He took
Mr. Romeo Cruz not of the lung complication but with a heart attack to which he kept fighting.. He was revived three times, highly unusual.. but when his daughters finally decided to let him go.. he gave a thumbs up and smiled while saying "im tired".. and then he was gone..
Tatay,
our prayers are with you. we are certainly sure that you are at peace beside the Father.Your 65 years legacy here on earth will never be forgotten. Your goodness will carry on to your family's heritage.. to your future grandchildren and their children and their children's children.. Thank you for making the world a better place.. and thank you for giving us shiela..:)
the haircut
finally, after so many years.. ive finally decided to gey my hair done.. i dont know what got into me.. that i finally found the courage to go to a salon and have my hair fixed because as you know may hair is bound for extinction haha!! as in literally everytime i brush pieces of it just falls down.. so yuucckkiie!hehe..:) well anyway, this was how it went..nez and i decided to get our heads done so we decided to drop by bench fix in rob place malate.. i was really hesitant at first but when i was at the chair i finally let out a sigh and told myself that you should do it.. im not being dramatic.. its just like i really havent been the type of person that gets a haircute every once in while.. i did not like the stylist that much probably because he wasnt that approachable at all, his face had no reaction, the way he explains what he's gonna do to my hair irritates me deep down.. so while he was rendering service to another guest, i browsed by a magazine to find something suitable.
after a few flip of the pages there finally was a hairstyle i knew i like.. so i asked the sarcastic hairstylist if he can do that and he said that he can, then he started snipping and snapping my precious hair.. after a few minutes of cutting, a blowdry and another set of cutting, it was official, i had my hair shorter than usual.. i liked it.. but had a slight predicament of how to maintain it.. knowing myself, im not the type of person that owns a comb or even uses one.. o well, what the heck.. hair grows back.. hehe!!
so voila.. the finished product!
from this angle..
to another angle..
definitely a fun-loving person, goody-two-shoes, wants to redecorate our kitchen, buy cooking stuff but apparantly happens only in dreams, adventure seeker, movie fanatic, approved lifesaver, a superhero, likes babies specifically her newborn nephew and niece, watch soaps from abs-cbn, still watches cartoons, literally laughs-out-loud, never been kikay since the day she went to high school, mistaken as lesbo, once addicted to computer games but now a homebody, one of the boys, aint scared of creepy crawlers, a loudmouth, reads only harry potter books and the rest is yet to be written..
