we all have our days..
it's been days since i last wrote a post here but here i am again as usual.. well, this past few days wansn't that rewarding because there were so many bad things that happened.. one of which is that my friend,shiela lost her p800 which was inside her locker!my gosh as in that's so weird! and imagine a thief at school????.. we suspected that it was someone we knew for sheile doesn't carry her fone that much around school and 2nd who would have known that it was inside her locker.. the most sad part about it is that it was her 2nd time to loose a p800 fone.. sobrang malas tlga.. we tried calling it yesterday but it was already turned off and last night says error in connection.. this afternoon we tried calling it again and it was ringing,yet there was no answer..another thing was about the book of my other friend, china was also missing, that book costs 2500 and it was very useful especially for our course.. haay grabe.. eniweiz, i wish for that person who stole those things would have one of his/her days as well.. my friends did not deserve it because they were both good people and they did nothing wrong.. i reallly hope that the culprit would be caught or be taught a lesson one of these days.. i really hate it when that happens and there was nothing we could do about it.. the school security also pisses me off because they are not showing any signs of effort in helping our friends find their missing stuff.. it's like their faces show that, "it happened, let it pass.." and i would like to tell them "hoy ano ba ngbabayad kami ng mhal rito tapos ggnyan gnyan lang kayo!" it was really frustrating..
btw, last sunday i cried for like the second time in 2 years! for what?just because of a celllphone!.. my brother was to blame for it.. i was really pissed off with him because he wanted to take my phone (which i bought with my own money) and sell it and use the money to buy another.. actually the original plan was to apply for 4 new lines at globe, but later that evening we found out that only 3 lines were to be applied, so there goes my kuya bragging about and making "paawa effect" just for me to give in to what he wants.. i cried because he's like leaving me with no choice just because i'm the youngest in the family and that really sucks!.. it sounded pathetic for my part but i just wanted to buy a new phone as well using the money that i would get out of selling my phone.. i left that sunday crying and not a word to my brother.. when monday came, my mom told my dad what happened.. he then called me up and settled everything by just giving me the money i needed but only if a give my phone to my brother, i finally agreed and alas it was settled..
funny to think how my dad works in mysterious ways.. hehehe.. he may not be close to us but he has his own way of settling arguments between my siblings and i.. but of course most of the time he really is as cold as ice.. he has his own way of showing he cares though in tinsy winsy bits of thoughtfulness.. but i really appreciate that.. i was really touched when i saw him wearing the shirt i bought him from malaysia.. i really thought he wouldn't wear it because he never does, anything that we give him.. yet i was really suprised when i saw him wearing it.. those things yet very little really touch me inside.. ang drama..hehehe..ü
what else?uhmm the ingerdients for our CCC were already given yesterday.. i'm so pressured because it's coming..ü i know together with my friends we can do it and make most out of it in the competition..ü well i guess i'm not that much inspired of writing more today and i guess that't it..ü
oh happy day..
this day has been really great.. many good things happened as in.. like..
-we were selected as semifinalists for the culinary catering challenge..
-i was given recognition from my profs for getting good grades..
-i got a 3.5 midterm grade for two of my subjects..i haven't heard for the rest..ü
-i laughed so hard during class, i never stopped for 30 minutes..ü
-i remembered watching the prince and me which was btw a real good movie..
-i didn't have cooking class today,less exhaustion..ü
-i saw a few long lost friends from lasalle..ü
-mom went to see me, alas!it was not for scolding..ü
-i took the fx and good thing there was no "bwisit" and talkative old man who kept talking about everything!ü
-i made a poem for my friend who has a crush on a guy who never notices..ü
-and as always.. i was hyper than ever..ü
wala lang.. though these things were not that so much to be happy about i still find them as very overwhelming..ü i just wanted to have a good day and there was it.. the only sad part about the CCC was that our proposal had to be revised totally for the cooking challenge would be freestyle so it would be much stress coming up with a new menu.. but i guess it's good practice eniweiz..ü i really10000x we'll win because we wanted to show that though our competitors are higher batches, we'll be able to prove and showcase what we've got..ü i'm really excited though a lot nervous at the same time..ü but of course like everybody says, we have to accept whatever decision the judges will make..some win,some loose..ü
well that's just it for my day.. at least i've written something here..hehe..ü
..collision..
hey hello!
u said it without hesitation..
oh hi!
i said which much pretention..
nice to see you!
with a sparkle in your eyes..
and you too!
it's been a while..
i've got to go now..
that's all u have left
well then ciao!..
saying it with much regret
a last chance..
before going astray..
a last glance..
when you finally walked away..
were you created to torment me?
i guess i'd never figure it out..
i know it can never be..
but i know someday i'll be able to speak out..
that you were once there..
when i was asleep..
..for my friendZzZz..
..i'm helpless..i'm confused..
whew..another day has come to an end..its been days since i last posted a blog but what the heck at least i am now..ü well these past week has been a total exhaustion, tests each day..laboratory work.. etc etc.. had to study (as if..) well, at least i ended my week ryt, i watched spiderman coz i wasnt able to when i posted it here..ü it was really cool,better than spiderman 1 ,i guess but what i really know is it's a 10 for me!ü well,actually tho it's been more of a love story it's still one of the best movies i've seen this year..ü i have so many movies in mind,i wanted to watch kill bill last saturday yet time was against me coz i ahd to go home to bulacan for the baptism of my nephew last sunday.. yada yada yada.. well the baptism went well, and golly!the food was so scrumptious!i had an eye for the chocolate cake which was baked by my sister-in-law.. yummy yummy yummy..ü this morning my friend neil texted me (himala), jsut to ask how much would a second hand 7650 cost blahblahblah.. though the converstaion was more on the fone,i have come to realize how much i miss the boys..how i miss hanging out with them and joining the laughtrips and "kamanyakan at pambababae" and stuff..i know that we have our own lives now but i know somewhere the friendship is still there(doesn't everybody?ü)..enough of the crap already..
speaking of time,later this evening i have wondered how i felt about what's happening to me, what's going to happen or whatever.. it's kinda weird actually, i can't help thinking that sometimes i tend to be so helpless.. sometimes i feel that my life is somewhat stuck or should i say in line to others.. i don't mean it in the negative way but sometimes i wind up being a "parasite" and i don't even have an idea why..sometimes i couldn't even stand up to what i believe is right because i end up agreeing to what others think.. it just feels like a bit awkward coz i started feel a bit ashamed of myself..it's so hard to adjust but i know i really have to.. i feel like i just agree on whatever is laid there and what's worse is that i think of my ideas as scrap.. weird ko tlg.. am i lacking self confidence?or just playing stupid?it's a real confusing thought for me.. fine, i excel in school and stuff but it feels like sometimes i'm in a self searching stage..but do get scared because come to think of it,what if i'm already having my practicum what would i do?what would happen to me..aaarrrgghhh!and weird ko!.. maybe i just want another brain!hahaü but of course as what was said in spiderman "we are who we choose to be..ü" we are what we believe we should be.. maybe there are really times we feel that we should give up the fight and loose our faith in ourselves,how i wish that won't happen to me very often.. i easily get discouraged when someone disagrees or negates what i say.. tsktsktsk.. sad to say i really am like that.. :( i should learn to take these things as compliments that would make me a better person.. haaaaaayyyy.. kinda stressing to the brain..ü i just have to live through thoughts of:
-time's against us..
-things change..
-plans fail..
-speak out..it helps..ü
-you are not always the superhero..
-nobody changes overnight..
-there's always a silver lining...
-God works in mysterious ways..and most of all..
-you are responsible for you own actions..
damn it.. now this really gives me a headache.. better get some rest..
..just perfect..
started the day just right..yet as usual and i think would be for my entire commuting career, transpo for school in the mornin was as hard as usual..decided to take the LRt but still no improvement,jampacked.. but what the heck,i didn't want that to ruin my monday morning.. had exams for my midterms,hellerr,i've read four freakin chapters and end up answering questions like,give objectives for each chapter?!what on earth was that?!.. freakshit.. well eniweiz,lookin on the brighter side it was much easier that stressing my brain for an objective type of test..
what's wrong with this day anyway?well maybe because of a guy who completely pisses me off..we are clasmates for say 3 subjects for this term,he was my marketing paper partner last term..enough wit the crap, well actually at first i was ignoring all his bullshit with me.. he kept on "tinatabla" ako..everythin i say had side comments,then i finally snapped.."tinabla" ko na rin.. last friday, he told me "hey pag my fiesta sa inyo kain kami ha".. of course i said sure why not.. he then says "oryt,pero pag kkain kami wag kang kakain ha!" i of course asked why then he said "eh bsta wag kang kakain lam mo na..".. at the back of my mind "WTF!are u talkin about?nangiinsulto ka pala eh edi wag ka ng pumunta!kala mo kung cno kang gwapo taena mo pala eh!".. but of course i forgot about it,though of it as a joke just as my friends say to me most of the time.. this mornin we we again classmates, i passed by him to talk to a classmate..out of nowhere he said "daan daan pa eh..", i said "ano bang problema mo?", he said "baket ikaw ba kausap ko?!", i finally said "e cnong kausap mo baliw ka pala eh!ni ndi k nmn kinakausap ni ron!(who is sitting beside him)" then i left.. i hate it when somebody does that to me!it really snaps the shit out of me!..and what's really annoying is that he calls my friend who let's just say a bit fat, PUMBA (from lion king)..helleeerr!can he just look at the mirror for just one sec?!he looks like godzilla for cying out loud!! double shit for robbie!.. i hate people like that,feeling close.. i don't think he has the right to call people names and be sarcastic about it..i believe that we all have our imperfections.. i admit that i have been able to call others, whom i don't find really nice, names but i don't tell it to their face and be happy about it! respect begets respect right?.. i am a person who tries to be very nice to everyone, i don't like enemies nor backstabbers (who does?) i sometimes end up as the "martir" one but it just because i just want peace of mind.. to hell with those who are feeling at so arrogant about themselves.. to hell with robbie!..
don't know what more to say but i guess i'll just finish up with a few inspirational lines that i picked up from the net.. i sum kinda related to them somehow..
"The end result of kindness is that it draws people to you." - Anita Roddick
"You can't always trust the people you want to." -- 10 Things I Hate About You
"As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe. It's not that we don't want to, but too much has happened that we just can't." -- Now and Then
well i guess that's it.. enough with the crap and live life already..
btw, im watchin spiderman tomorrow.. can't wait..ü
definitely a fun-loving person, goody-two-shoes, wants to redecorate our kitchen, buy cooking stuff but apparantly happens only in dreams, adventure seeker, movie fanatic, approved lifesaver, a superhero, likes babies specifically her newborn nephew and niece, watch soaps from abs-cbn, still watches cartoons, literally laughs-out-loud, never been kikay since the day she went to high school, mistaken as lesbo, once addicted to computer games but now a homebody, one of the boys, aint scared of creepy crawlers, a loudmouth, reads only harry potter books and the rest is yet to be written..
