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a wake up call.. some scary shit..
Yes, im finally, i am a week away to the end of this practicum.. Im starting to feel very happy but at the same time butterflies in my stomach would not stop everytime that i think of the fact that I'd be working soon since luckily, the Executive Chef of Mandarin approached me later this afternoon and asked me whether i was interested in working in Mandarin Deli at Gateway. I nodded in agreement and to conclude, he asked me for my whole name.. well, hopefully he meant it the way i understood it, that i was in.. I am really scared, really.. But i know that somewhere deep inside that i am very excited that finally i'd be earning my own money.. Well as far as i know, compensation in mandarin is not that much to be proud of but what i am really after is the experience and of course the fun. I know how hard it is to find a job these days most especially from all the crap that's been happening here in pinas. That is why somehow im hoping for a miracle.. an open window to a world outside this country.. outside this chaos.. Well gusto ko lang tlga mgtrabaho abroad!hehe.. :)
Three years and one term, i am finally graduating. Gosh, i want to do more with school. I wanted to study something about wines and bar management which i wasnt able to take up and also baking and pastry arts. But i guess as they say experience is the best teacher, i might as well learn all these things in the long run. Maybe i am just having an urge of going the extra mile or something like that.. (nax Benildean spirit hehe:D).. The worst is yet to come thats what all i know at this point. Love the present.. Live for the future.. Walang sense ung sinabi ko pero parang nagetz ko ng konti pra sa sarili ko.. hehe..:)
Well this was taken from an email from z.. It really scared me to think these might eventually happen in the future.. AYOKO! most especially the fourth paragraph.. here goes..
>Tumatanda ka na, friend.
> Nasa Friday Magic Madness na yung mga paborito mong kanta.
> Nakaka-relate ka na sa Classic MTV.
> Lesbiana na yung kinaaaliwan mong child star dati.
> Nanay na lagi ang role ng favorite mong matinee idol noon.
>
> Dati, pag may panot, sisigaw ka agad ng "PENDONG!".
> Ngayon, pag may sumisigaw nun, ikaw na yung napapraning.
> Parang botika na ang cabinet mo.
> May multivitamins, vitamin E, vitamin C, royal jelly, tsaka ginko
> biloba.
>
> Dati, laging may inuman. Sa inuman, may lechon, sisig, kaldereta,
> inihaw na
> liempo, pusit, at kung anu-ano pa.
> Ngayon,nagkukumpulan na lang kayo ng mga kasama mo sa Starbucks at
> oorder> ng tea.
>
> Wala na ang mga kaibigan mo noon.
> Ang dating masasayang tawanan ng barkada sa canteen, napalitan na
> ng walang
> katapusang pagrereklamo tungkol sa kumpanya ninyo
> Wala na ang best friend mo na lagi mong pinupuntahan kapag may
> problema ka.
> Ang lagi mo na lang kausap ngayon e ang kaopisina mong hindi ka sigurado>
>kung binebenta ka sa iba pag nakatalikod ka.
> Ang hirap nang magtiwala.
>
> Mahirap nang makahanap ng totoong kaibigan.
> Hindi mo kayang pagkatiwalaan ang kasama mo araw-araw sa opisina.
> Kung sabagay, nagkakilala lang kayo dahil gusto ninyong kumita ng
> pera at
> umakyat sa tinatawag nilang "corporate ladder".
> Anumang pagkakaibigang umusbong galing sa pera at ambisyon ay hindi
> talaga totoong pagkakaibigan.
> Pera din at ambisyon ang sisira sa inyong dalawa.
>
> Pera. Pera na ang nagpapatakbo ng buhay mo.
> Alipin ka na ng VECO, PLDT, SkyCable, Globe, Smart, at Sun.
> Alipin ka ng Midnight Madness.
> Alipin ka ng tollgate sa expressway.
> Alipin ka ng credit card mo.
> Alipin ka ng ATM.
> Alipin ka ng BIR.
>
> Dati-rati masaya ka na sa isang platong instant pancit canton.
> Ngayon,dap! at may kasamang italian chicken ang fettucine alfredo mo.
> Masaya ka na noon pag nakakapag-ober-da-bakod kayo para makapagswimming.
> Ngayon, ayaw mong lumangoy kung hindi Boracay o Puerto Galera ang lugar.
> Dati, sulit na sulit na sa yo ang gin pomelo.
> Ngayon, pagkatapos ng ilang bote ng red wine, maghahanap ka ng San Mig Light o Vodka Cruiser.
>
> Wala ka nang magawa.
> Sumasabay ang lifestyle mo sa income mo.
> Nagtataka ka kung bakit hindi ka pa rin nakakaipon kahit tumataas ang sweldo mo.
> Yung mga bagay na gusto mong bilhin dati na sinasabi mong hindi mo kailangan, abot-kamay mo na.
> Pero kahit nasa iyo na ang mga gusto mong bilhin, hindi ka pa rin makuntento.
> Saan ka ba papunta?
> Friend, gumising ka.
> Hindi ka nabuhay sa mundong ito para maging isa lang sa mga baterya ng mga machines sa Matrix.
> Hanapin mo ang dahilan kung bakit nilagay ka rito.
> Kung ang buhay mo ngayon ay uulit-ulit lang hanggang maging kwenta anyos ka na, magsisisi ka.
> Lumingon ka kung paano ka nagsimula, isipin ang mga tao at mga
> bagay na nagpasaya sa yo.
> Balikan mo sila.
>
> Ikaw ang nagbago, hindi ang mundo.
definitely a fun-loving person, goody-two-shoes, wants to redecorate our kitchen, buy cooking stuff but apparantly happens only in dreams, adventure seeker, movie fanatic, approved lifesaver, a superhero, likes babies specifically her newborn nephew and niece, watch soaps from abs-cbn, still watches cartoons, literally laughs-out-loud, never been kikay since the day she went to high school, mistaken as lesbo, once addicted to computer games but now a homebody, one of the boys, aint scared of creepy crawlers, a loudmouth, reads only harry potter books and the rest is yet to be written..
